18 feels good, yadamean?

Assalamua Alaikom :).

This year is gonna be good, Insha'Allah. I can feel it inside of me. I am so grateful to be alive. Shukr Alhamdulillah. :looks at the stars in the sky:. Mmmmmmm....

Anyhoo, this is my kinda squirrel, for sure ;D -

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20070802/od_nm/squirrel_chocolate_dc

"It removes the foil carefully, eats the chocolate and leaves the store with the toy," Irene Lindroos said.

Hehe, cute huh? :D.

Hmm...I'm bored. Gimme some ideas of productive things to do...hmmm...(Yes, I'm talking to the crickets :P.)

Anyway, I think I'll just read something beneficial, salam :).

Knowledge is poooowwwwwwwaaaaa'.

Baaack.

Assalamua Alaikom warahmatullah wa barakatuhu :).

Hmm...I was scared and worried about a number of things. The situations haven't changed much, but this morning as I was reciting the Qur'an, I came across this verse:

"O ye who believe! Seek help in steadfastness and prayer. Lo! Allah is with the steadfast." [2: 153]

Crystal clear. Subhan'Allah.

I was meant to read that verse! And it couldn't have come at a better time. Alhamdulillah.

Now to put it into play and put the knowledge to some good use. Like realizing that I may think something is good for me, but it may not be. And patiently persevere, because Allah (swt) knows what is best for me. Allah (swt) is the Best of Planners. And I trust Him. And I rely on Him.

I feel like a rush of tranquility has come over me. I've missed this feeling. Alhamdulillah :).

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I guess you could say that this is what I've been up to this past month or so:

It feels like I go through a process (it's a PROCESS, now) of taking a few steps forward, and before I can seal the deal (actually, I don't think there's such a thing as sealing the deal in this regard, so yeah, excuse the phrase), I leap a few steps backwards. I start losing my gripe on the rope of Allah (swt). And just keep tumbling downhill, all the while, knowing that something's not right. But something (it's Shaitaan...he's threatened by us believers, always tryna manipulate us) always takes over my senses, so I can't get back on track on my own. Only through the will of Allah (swt). And I'm very grateful that Allah (swt) chooses to guide me. Alhamdulillah. Subhan'Allah :). I come back stronger each time, I don't know what weakens me along the way, though :(...Whatever it is, I'm going to try my best to prevent it from happening this time around! Allahu Alim, it may be my last chance.

May Allah guide us to the Straight Path and keep us on it. Ameen, thumma ameen!

Ah, so I'm gonna go eat breakfast, now...Honey Bunches of Oats sound good right about now, ya heard. (Do I always end my posts with the mention of food? hmm :P.)

Salam :).

P.S. Tomorrow I'll be 18!! Alhamdulillah! I can't believe I've lived for 18 years O.o

I feel old...hah...